Was I prepared for something life-changing the moment I walked into my eye surgeon's office? No, but that moment set me on a completely new path. I was much more pessimistic about things then than I am now. I was much more serious and by the book before that day. I didn’t take advantage of life. I went to work; I’d watch the same TV shows on repeat and have dinner around the same time nightly. Rinse and repeat.
Doesn’t sound too exciting? Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t have the most normal job; I got paid to be on the radio and make dumb jokes. But it felt like I was just living the John Mayer song “Why Georgia” over and over again. Without being able to answer the question John asked poetically, “am I living it right?”.
That all changed on that day. Hearing a doctor say your eyesight is fleeting changes you. You reflect on wasted moments, think of moments that haven’t happened yet, and even the little things you don’t ever take a minute to enjoy like the color of the grass.
That happened over a summer. A summer where in the back of my head a voice would say, “you’ll be blind by Christmas”. Scared was who I was, not to say I am not afraid now, but I’ve come to accept it. But because a life change can open your mind to things.
I started to see the beauty in life, the joy that each day was, how friendly people can be, and yes even the color of the grass. Going blind taught me an important lesson: life is pretty special when we take the time to enjoy it. So maybe now I do have the answer… I am living it right; it just took losing some vision to get me there.
Jared
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